Spring comes to Brookline
It has been three months since I last posted on Slow Muse. I had envisioned that I would return to writing once I could talk about my current condition in the past tense. But given frequent inquiries of “Where are you?” and a timeline for recovery that is unknown, I am stepping back in now.
Last January I started having headaches. Then one afternoon my eyesight just went double. After a lot of hospital time and “we don’t know what’s wrong,” I was diagnosed with a carotid cavernous fistula. I had neurosurgery in April to repair this condition and was told it may be six months before my eyesight returns. And of course there are no guarantees that it will come back at all.
Being unable to read, write, paint or drive changes everything. (Voice to text is a godsend.) But like anyone who has been through a health crisis knows, these unexpected detours bring their own perspective and hard won wisdom. I am new at this and not very adept. But I am learning as I go, and I am paying close attention to friends who have developed skills at navigating challenges like this. And do it with grace.
Thank you to all of you who have reached out to me. It is so appreciated.
More to come.